| Note: This e-mail's actually from last night. I wasn't able to send it because… well, I'm one big technological disaster… a computer idiot to put it simply. Hehe. So, here it is…
Hey, crazy girl! Hehehe. Before anything else, thanks for taking the time to leave me a message. I've been with Eman2man for some months now, but this is the first time a student has written to me, and I'm ecstatic! I enjoy writing and receiving letters and emails, so anytime you are bored, can't sleep, or you simply feel like writing, just hit me up. =)
Now I'm wondering about what could have nearly driven you to tears last night. Hmm, could it be your awfully boring life? Oh, if I was in your shoes, I'd be crying oceans of tears everyday, too! Hahaha! Nah, kidding. ;) It's okay to cry though, regardless of whether you have a reason or not. I do that all the time. I'm so silly; I cry over movies, books, art, the sunset, the rain… I cry over everything, and, sometimes, I cry over nothing. Sure, there'd be moments when you'd start feeling like such a chicken, but the relief afterwards is like nothing else. Crying has actually become my catharsis. You should try it, too! ;)
Now, on pessimism… I'm pretty much just as pessimistic as you are, if not worse, but I try--or pretend-- to be optimistic for the people I love and care about. Negativity can sometimes be infectious, and I don't like being the black hole that sucks the light out of other people's lives, so I cover up that dark cynical side of me and put on this sunny fa?de. But, on second thought, pessimism does not always have to be detrimental either; we can use it in a positive way, too, however ironic that sounds. It can keep us on our toes and motivate us. So as long as we use it as a driving force rather than as a discouragement, I guess pessimism is okay. =) Though… there are also moments when I get unreasonably negative, and during those times, I just tell myself that other people are going through worse plights; it is like, while I'm crying about not having shoes, other people don't have feet… and yet they are able to endure the burdens of life. So, why not me and why not you, right? I really think you'll fare well in life, Nina… simply because you have what it takes. ;)
Oh, I'm babbling and this e-mail's really long now, so I'll end it here. See you in class tomorrow and I hope to hear something nice out of your terminally monotonous life (though I don't really expect anything). Hehehe. Later, Nina…
xoxo
The Crazier Girl
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